too late

It's late. I really should be asleep. You know, another busy day tomorrow. 

I keep thinking about what I could have done, should have done, could not have done , didn't do and what I did. Oh, please, let's not talk about it. 

Sometimes we do dumb stuff. It happens. I can't take it back. I meant it what I said. And, it still hurts today. Feelings and mistakes getting in the way of friendships and complicated crap creeping it's way into my simple life. 

I did apologize. But what he doesn't know is I cried. Well, why the hell not.

It was just a small thing. Keeps on pushing it's way back into my mind. Why do I have to be so stupid sometimes. I want it to go away. 

It won't.


April 2013