Chapter 5 - Temptations

December had turned into January and then into February. And somehow work had become bearable once again. Liz was enjoying the cool weather and enough distractions at work to bring about some sort of satisfaction from the normal, mundane and monotonous.

Old friends would take her out now and not embarrassed to be with her. After all, she had lost a considerable amount of weight and was at least, appearing to look better. She liked what she saw in the mirror, even if it was a bit saggy here and there.

And so, it was dinner with friends tonight where she would get the usual comments, wowo you look good! And must be a guy?? But there never was a guy and hadn't been one for quite some time.

She was at the restroom door when she got a tap on her shoulder, which made her jump, at least two feet.

"Geez! You scared the shit out of me!"

"Funny", he said. "what are you up to?"

"Dinner! Come meet my friends!"

"I'm with my wife, I'll bring her!"

She went into the restroom and met him coming out,  walked over to his table where he made quick introductions and then they all went over to her table.

Ramiro and his wife were fun, alive and kept everyone on their toes all night. Liz never had a better time. At the end of the evening, they all said goodnight but she needed to hit the restroom one more time, where once again she ran into him. He grabbed her.

"Thanks," and he hugged her.

She was startled again, but gave him a hug back. That's when he held her for a moment and sort of whispered in a low voice, " Are you ready for this?"

Of course she laughed and pulled away. She knew he was kidding.

There would be other times. Liz would need to be strong.  Afterall, he was twenty years younger then she, even if he was almost impossible to refuse. He was an extremely good looking man. Liz would have her day dreams but never gave it any serious thought. But there was something so intriguing about him. And even if she said no, she wanted to say yes. She would have to keep telling herself stories...he's married and way too young.....and I can't do this.....

Remains

You play that game

the one where you win

and I remain the same

It's always this and that

and who

you want to blame

making you not the winner,

who taught you how

to play this game?

When you kissed me

and I kissed you back

no need to make more of it

I was just passing time

what part of that

meant more

then 

any of this rhyme?

What you didn't and

never have gotten

lest you forget

which seemed more rotten

whether you were just

using me or

maybe just misbegotten

plans,

could it be

you were really falling in love...?

I tend to think 

the latter,

but maybe not

right then

So now,

you play that game

the one where you want

to win and I

remain the same

only trouble is

I know your name

and all the places

from which you came

I see through you now

and two

can play that game

And maybe this time

I'll win

while you can't help yourself

you,

remain the same....

March 2014

Miss You

Today, I

miss you 

more than anything

I miss you're touch

and your laugh

I miss your

crazy love

I miss

you.

If what you

say is true,

then I'll 

cry forever

and never ever

give up

on you

If what you say is true

And if I miss you

more than

anything

will you come

back to me

I won't ever

tell a soul

promise

or pretend

miss your

kiss, behind the corner

miss your lips,

in a dark room,

miss your love

where no one sees

miss you

now

miss you

then

miss you always

my one

and only 

miss you

when

March 5, 2014