Life Sneaks Up On You

 I got some pictures on the wall
I got some stories I can tell
there are some numbers I can call
when I'm not feeling very well
but life sneaks up on you sometimes
sometimes its cold outside

do you remember when
we stayed up all night
when we thought we got it right
when we had that little fight
life sneaks up on you sometimes
sometimes its cold outside

Why do children have to die
why do friends go bye bye
sometimes I just don't understand
could you just hold my hand
life sneaks up on you sometimes
sometimes its cold outside

I think I'm going to cry now
thats just the way I feel
I keep going I don't know how
I'm like a cog stuck in a wheel
life sneaks up on you sometimes
sometimes its cold outside

We have to love every minute
We should love every minute
give it all we have and more
cause when it is all said and done
life sneaks up on you sometimes
sometimes its cold outside

I think I'm going to cry now
thats just the way I feel
life sneaks up on you sometimes




Melvin L Harris
1947-2016

Forever

I'm in love with you
there, I've said it, what
would you have me do?
you must not judge that
I have abandoned all that
I once knew, just to
be alone with you

Lips upon my neck and
down my back, hair that
falls across my face,
shirt unbuttoned falls to
the ground, hands grabbing
at my breasts and I am
not afraid of letting go
as I reach around some
forbidden place and you,
have given me more
than I could have
dreamed in this time
and space

 I'm in love with you
and so unafraid to speak
my mind nor do I care and
do not have anything
to gain by speaking up
and screaming from
my heart, it's the beginning
it's a beautiful start

Life is funny and romantic
and I have no idea what
I am saying anymore except
I love you more and more
and be there that small
chance that I may have
your love forever more,
then you must not ever
forget that I will always
be waiting just outside
your door.






July 2016

Love

              

  I wanted you forever

not just for one night....

June 2016

I Let Go

I've been accused
of a lot of things
even so far as
all the paranoia
that brings
but I've never been
accused of loving
too much
I never knew
there was such

Now you're telling me
that I was the one
that just didn't see
That it was never meant
to be
that I had misconstrued
something that was not
ever to come
something that was
always just a bit undone

But of all the times
we were together
I know what it feels like
to love somebody forever
And no matter what you said
or how much you want to hurt me
I know what we had
it wasn't all in my head

So I see now, what you wanted
from me
you can't even look at me
not even worth an apology
or can't even say my name
and if you stole my heart
I have no one else but me
to blame

If there ever was a time
when you wanted me so
I guess, from what you say
if it's true, we will never know
I gave you my heart
my body, my soul
But you break me down now
it's time
I need to let you go........






May     2016

I Still Remember

I just remember what
You said and how you
Said it

I remember what you meant
And how you meant it

Stay away from me
Or you'll regret it
You'll regret it

Your words cut right through me
Then you let it
Let it

I saw you walk away from me
You said you wanted to be free
I grabbed the flower
From the base
You never really saw
My face
And then  I heard
You scream

Stay away from me
Or you'll regret it
Your words cut through me
Then you let it
I've learned I'm never going to get it

And I still love you
There I've said it

I just remember what you said
And how you meant it
And somewhere deep inside
You regret it
Because you still want me
It is so plane to see

I still remember ..……
There I've said it





May 2016

That One Thing....

It was that one thing for someone who

prided themselves

on accuracy and

the thought of you today

has me dreaming of us

and yesterday

See, you had taken

the trouble, so kind

of you after

all to explain

the destination in great

detail even so far

as telephoning so

clear and oh then said

as if I were near

it was that one thing

when I had arrived

that puzzled me so

there was that part

where you say

and if by chance you've

lost your way, then by

all means

by all means

you may call me or not

if you want to make your

own way

It was that one thing

was it what you were

really trying to say

that even though we 

had been apart

there were still matters

of the heart

For you and all 

your perfection would

have NEVER made that

mistake, there's no question

I made it just 

the same, and did not

need your words to find

my way.... and now

I know what you

were really trying to say.....

I think, I know

what you were really trying to say

but we shall save that

for another day......

....

April  2016

I'm Done

I'm done, seems like I've been here before

like two years ago, 

when my heart felt the blows

 I longed for you, but 

you said we were done

and I hung on 'til

I thought I had won

I'm really done, this time.

then I get sucked back in 

on just a whim of a word

crack of your smile

your laugh and I'm

there, sucked in

with a promise

to stay awhile

But then it never

comes to be

that time when we

were just we

when we were so close

came a promise and a joke

I'm not sure what it was

what ever the dream was

why I saw something

or thought it was something

when all it was

was free

a little bit of heaven

was what it was to be

I'm done. I've been here before

I've heard that knocking

on my door

but my heart doesn't want to go

holds me back, 

I don't know what for

Tears upon me, now

I'm done with this 

for real

pretend there never was

this deal, 

and heart can let me go

this hurt this love this man

surreal

for real... 

It's over. I'm done.

March  2016

Finally, it's about time...

So you think you've finally fallen in love. Forget that you never ever thought you could have ever gotten here. Yet here you are. Yes, you are finally where you have wanted to be forever, where you should be. It feels right. It feels like home. 

Remember, a short time ago you were alone, like destiny. Dating did not seem possible anymore. How many men do you have to meet to find the "one"? Maybe 100, 200? It wasn't fun anymore. Things weren't jelling. They seemed like just wrong. Or maybe it was you that was wrong.

It was tiresome and monotonous and torcherous. You gave up. And you took the attitude that maybe one day it would happen, but maybe not. 

So you kept to yourself, making the best of what you had. You let yourself go a little. Ah, who cares anyway. 

And then one day, this guy walks into your life. He just saunters in like he owns the place! At first you didn't notice and could care less. There were many reasons but let's face it, he just wasn't the guy you were looking for and there were no sparks, no pizzaz. He wasn't the one either, you had come to that conclusion early on.

And for some ungodly reason, he wants to talk to you. But you just were polite. He catches you in the most inopportune times. But you know he's just being nice. He seems kind. He is sweet and the most important thing, he makes you laugh. You start to see this guy in a whole other light. 

Time passes. Now, not only do you look forward to seeing him, but you have started to take better care of yourself. Eat less, exercise more, that sort of thing.

After awhile you felt your walls start to come down and he teases you about maybe going for "this big hunk of a man" you start to consider what he's saying. And what is he saying, exactly? 

And after he chases you, tells you how lovely you look 100 thousand times and a whole bunch of other things that make you believe that maybe... maybe... this could be something..


And then one day, it happens. How it happened is not important. That first kiss, that first touch was so divine that you never wanted it to end. And it seemed the same with him. Being with him was something you might imagine as being in heaven.  You felt his passion and his love pour down upon you. And you never wanted it to end.

Months of stealing kisses and looking forward to seeing each other occupied your mind. You couldn't wait for the talks about the future, the plans, and most of all more time with him.

And then a funny thing happened, he had something to tell you, something you might not like, but he, your lover, your best friend needed to tell you so that you might understand better. You know, like where he's coming from. So he starts to tell you that he had somebody else but was unhappy. He wasn't complaining, he just felt it fair you knew. And so with sadness in your heart, you and he decide not to see each other for awhile. And your heart begins to break.

A month passes and he tells you he needs to figure some things out. You know what he means. Two months, three and then he says he can't see you because you are too much of a temptation. Even more time passes. 

But then one day he comes to you, needing a shoulder to cry on. And you hold each other and one thing leads to another. He's sorry. You cry. And you seem to be trying to bridge this hurdle. 

But each day that passes, every hour of every day, you know what you did may have seemed wrong, but it was right. You never meant to hurt anyone. You also realize that you may never get to be with the one you love ever again. And, you contemplate giving up on this man who stole your heart and made you believe again. 

Then occasionally there are only stolen moments which makes you think he still cares and he really does love you. 

It's been almost two years. You realize that this might be a series of bad decisions. Yet, you never gave up on love, the one thing that has held you up and given you strength. Maybe he wasn't perfect but it doesn't matter. He was everything to you. And you, finally, completely, whole heartedly, undauntingly, unabashedly and with all your heart, fell in love. It was the most beautiful feeling ever. Ever. And given the choice of not ever experiencing this or having him in your life, you know you would not change anything, not for a million dollars. A million dollars. You were lucky to have finally fallen in love again; your heart soared, your soul came alive and you were touched by something not everyone gets to have. 

The memories you will always have. The feeling, you will never forget and the love that will remain and once again after time has passed,  you will ask yourself, "Will I ever fall in love again?" 





February 2016

lover's lament

we are like two alone
who walk in the night
I can't be afraid, even
if your not with me
I know that it's coming
like the dawn at first light

I have no where to go but
back to you even when
it's dark and cold
the rain pouring down
upon my treacherous soul
my ship lights the sea
but off into the distance
I can just barely see
the breath of another
he is calling to me

we have not spoken
but I hear a gentle voice
whispering my name
even when I beg and
have no choice
it is the bleakness
that I walk, not knowing where to go
a gentle voice to lean upon
makes me feel like home

because nothing makes sense
you hating me, what I've become
me wishing that we had never begun
we are like two now, walking alone
it is not like we wanted this
or that we wished these moments unsung
now you don't see me but somehow you know
and I long for the moment

we are two lost now, alone
but somehow I know
somehow we know...





February 1, 2016
two thousand and sixteen with the first of february

hold me heart

oh hold me heart
hold on to me,
fight
for I think I have fallen
such an unsettling sight


when was the last time
I felt your breath upon
my neck
your kiss upon
my lips
your love in every
part of my soul
only my heart knows
the pain that I feel
hold me heart









January 30, 2016

Thread

I feel like it's just a thread

That I'm clinging to

Just a thread and I'm

Gonna learn to get over you 

Eventually

One two weeks go by

I'm hanging my hat,
it's out to dry, I'm learning
to fly..

And I feel like it's

Just a thread

That binds me to you

Just a thread

but  I still love you

If I could take back time

I think I never would have
lost my mind

If I could take back time I

Never would have

Lost your mind

My mind

Cuz I  feel like it's just a thread

That I'm clinging to

Just a thread

and I'll never get over you

January 2016!
Happy New Year everybody!