Damn Shit Life

I'm loving my damn shit
life right now, right now
okay, somehow someway
I'm in real real heaven these
days..  not the kind of
heaven I can talk about
just a little smidge of
of somethin' making me smile
randomly and making
me    be   here   now....

I'm staying in this place
as long as I can cause
any day now, I could be
wrong, but any day now
I could be singing a
different song...
with indifferent endings
that just might make
me emotional and dig
deep inside that world..
all it would do is make
me sad inside and
make    me    cry .....

I don't know what I
did to deserve this
like did I get something
special for what as if  and
now it's become a turning
point that I'm thinkin'
while I'm here, just
let me state the facts
while I'm here, there's
nothing more that I
want   then   you

They say talking about it
is the way to the answer
but if I try to talk about
it I may not ever stop
it's a world that
I haven't been in
and what oh what the
hell made me come here
but world, I am in it
and I'm not not the hell
coming after but staying
in it and saying to you
can it be true...
I have fallen for you ?

I'm lovin' my damn shit
life right now and it's
all because of you yes you
and there ain't nothin you
or I can do about it
'cept just try to go with
it and let it happen
because we are good
together and sooner
or later sooner or later
they'll all know.....
I'm here in  heaven
with you........
lovin' my damn shit life.....

Taken By You

Your hand in mine, barely touching
wanting what I want
the anticipation of your lips
softly on mine
I'm taken by you

We're from different places,
I see things in the past
your kind of looking towards
the future and we don't always
have to be on the same side,
but I can't stop
wanting you or stop
remembering the way
you first kissed me and
I'm taken by you

Grab my hair, run your
fingers down my back
kissing me until I'm completely
breathless, I'm left limp
and wanting a future
with someone who loves me
like I love him...

I dreamed about you
I knew you were coming I
knew you would be everything
that I ever imagined but
even better because I never
knew who or why or when
I only knew I'd be
taken by you.....




October 2013

the beginning

tell me what you want
and don't play games
with me while you play
games with everyone else
lest you find one day
that I decided to go

you're arms around me
tell me something but
not enough, and don't
tell me what you feel or
how you think or what
you think you know

and mostly on those days
when I don't see you
makes me remember
that I want to see you
but you're no where and
it's getting late and no
wonder I wonder where
you are

if you really want me to
know then we could
already have this done
but I ask you and you
ask me and we both
can't say what our hearts
want to see

accept for that sly sneaky
kiss on the back of my neck
made me weak in my knees and
gave me shivers that I don't
mind but you never said
what it is and or what is was
and what we want or
do we want to but I
guess we do, well you do

so, do you think you can
tell me, shall I wait do you know
do we stay do I know
what I want you to know
how that meant so much
in the back of my mind
I was thinking I love you
I was thinking you know
I was thinking it's time
in the back of my mind
tell me what you want
and don't play games
tell me before it's too late
tell me
it's time



October 2013

The In Betweens

it wasn't where that they needed to be
was not there and didn't have to
it was somewhere and that's where everything
happened somewhere in between

she remembered how it was almost dawn
light peering through the door
not that she saw it only that she did
recall and it was only fleeting that she
thought how it was about to turn daylight

he ran his hand down her back
she inched her arms around his neck
as he pulled her close and held her
tight as if there would be nothing
left but air to grasp and then soon nothing
left to breathe....

she kissed his cheek, ever so close to his lips
his mouth groping for hers
tender, sweet, passionate, loving kisses
his each and everyone one better then
before making her want more and more
and the darkness filled their
in betweens

he grabbed her hair and gently pulled
her head back as he kissed her neck
from her lips all the way down
to her breasts and then
back up again to her mouth.. she
wrapped her hands around his
face and kissed him again
and again love and lust
intermingled in their arms

he pulled her blouse she modestly
tried to turn away, but he reached behind
her and unclasp her bra... he could not
stop himself and she did not want to stop
him now..

he grabbed her and lifted her
she mostly a willing participant, wrapped her
legs around him as he held her so close to him.
he sat her on the table and they made love
they made love like neither had before.

but now it was time to go, to leave
and what was to be done, there was
no answer to their love...they had no
choice for it was already in the morning
light now each and every kiss somewhere
out there and what was done, was done
and never knowing
where they were or where they were
going or where they were to be
and the morning light filling the air

too late to turn back secrets
that would stay between them forever
he held her hand and kissed so gently
the tears she cried when he said,"
not again, not ever again." Her heartache
filling the in betweens....


October 2013

And It Was

we sat across from each other,
at the table.
you with yours and me with mine
I asked for the salt
and you were the only one who heard me
the conversation was solemn each
remembering the agenda we had in mind
we talked about the weather
we talked about politics
we talked about animals
but we never talked about me & you
you asked a simple question
did anyone know what time it was
I looked into your face, the lovely story it told
I didn't want to move,
and then we were across the table, again

your water spilled and I reached to give
you napkins, everyone else oblivious
your hand touched mine, when
I looked up our eyes met, it was
only you and I, only you and I
trying to make sense of it
and then it was time to say goodbye
We all hugged, the obligatory hug,
I put my arms around you and feeling your arms
around me, while everyone else laughed
and made the small talk
I felt the way you feel.....
we said goodbye, fingers lingering
on your shoulders
loving from afar
as we sat across the table




October 2013

Fate

It's late. I have seen you many times before
Walking down a darkened path,
brushed against you through a door,
caught your eye across  the room
it's very very late

Not a day goes by
that you don't creep into my thoughts
like the clever magic man selling card
tricks on the corner
or the hat trick man who fools you
with his hat, every time
you creep into my thoughts when
I least expect, and I'm all alone

It's like a dream I had
many times before, each time wanting more
waking up to realize that it was
just another dream and each
time wondering what I dreamed it for

It's late. The sun has set beyond the horizon
and shadows skate across the hills
I am haunted by you, should we meet
on that darkened path that I should hold
you close and circumstance and all,
know you are the one

Fall is coming. I look outside, only to see
the leaves have dropped and covered the
ground with an orange and yellow carpet
And I see someone coming, can sense it too
I've been here before, at this door
but in all of history, never with you
in all of history, I see you
It's getting very very late
and somehow I wonder,
could it possibly at last
come true....






October 2013