Sunday, December 29, 2013

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She was drawn to him.
And despite the ever-changing 
world around them,
despite the unpredictability
of their lives;
she could not forget him
or get him out of her head.

She thought the time away
would do them some good,
he with his and
she with her's.
But as time came nearer
to the moment
they would see each other
again, 
she began to anticipate
all the love that
she had missed.
It was now consuming
her.
She would dream about him
at night and
crave him during the day.
And it would seem as though
he had taken her soul.
There would be no respite
for her
as time was not her friend.
She wanted his kiss,
his voice and
every part of him. 
And she wondered how this
ever came to be.

They were so different
and yet so much alike.
Their fateful meeting 
had paralyzed them and
they couldn't move past
what they had found, 
for love knows 
no boundaries.
Love has no rules.

Did he think he could
forget her - make her
go away in his mind?
He was hopelessly, forever
trapped in her
magical spirit 
that seemed to take
them far far away
where they were 
forgotten.

It would be a greatest love story.




December 2013.

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Crashing

I'm crashing,
not that kind, the kind where you know
it's done
it's down to the
difference between
him or me and
whose going to
hurt more,
whose going to
give in
I don't even know
where to go
from here

I'm crashing,
each day gets harder
to live and
I wake with
 dread, an
awful feeling that
I might die today
tomorrow or
right in his arms
if I'm ever there
again

I'm crashing
and trying not to cave
into my runaway
emotions
that have a
stranglehold
on my heart and
a noose
around my soul

I gulp another sip
of something that
helps me not feel
or think or
even want to
want you
not ever
not tomorrow
not now
not until after the
end of time

I'm crashing and
one of these days
one these weeks
pretty soon
I will have a reason
to let go
and stop loving
and wanting
you so

desperately I fill
my mind with so
much shit that I
don't
know where I am
from day to day
week to week
and I'm thinking
......


if I loved you any less
would you then
have loved me more?

I'm just frickin' crashing


December 2013

Sunday, December 8, 2013

It Was Lovely

I was okay five minutes ago
well, yah,
someone told me a  joke
and I was like,
yeah, make me
laugh and shit

but that was six minutes
and ten seconds ago
and alot has
changed
since then
like now I'm worlds away
and light speeded
to another planet
somewhere

I thought I told you
what I meant to say
was it's over
that's all I have to say
that was seven minutes 
and who gives a shit
how much and or
why or what the?
I mean
who really cares?

Like my happiness depends
on some precarious
misnomer
of this some guy
or something or other
person
that is hurting
my 
hurting me
and I can't seem to stop it
him, or make
the hurt
 go away

See ten minutes ago, 
I was happy and
now all hell
shit has come lose
and the happiness
or so-called
is not really there
and I'm feeling
like I'm lost
really lost

It could have been five minutes or five months
I don't know anymore
since he told me
it was over
one minute I'm
good
and the next
I'm on the floor
(it's worse then dying,
you ought to try it)

I keep thinking back
no better not
do that
could be a good
thing or not
and since I'm not
sure then
it's best not
to go there
five minutes ago or five months ago
just best not to go

Nothing seems to be 
working right now
the tears just keep
coming and
there's no saving me
I can't think of anything
else that might or
might not be funny
so I'll just
say
It was only five minutes,
but it was 
lovely......





December 2013


Love Come Again

I see you standing there
all alone and barely
where
you want to be or
even where you
want to stay

I tried to let you see
we belonged together
and we
could have been so
ready for this
and then 
I look into your eyes
and  
know this was
never meant
to be

Then you tell me 
 without words 
tell me stories
that I 
that I've never heard
and without worry
or regrets
I fall back into 
you and with
all my heart I say
lets

I should have skipped 
this part
I should have
loved you more
I should have
kissed your lips then
I should have
let our love
soar
from the highest
mountain
to the
what's that street's
name
front door

I see you standing
there
and I know
that this love
has come again
and I can't
help my 
heart singing
loud and unabashed
and or how much
I want you
how much I want you
how much I ache for you

coming
back
once again










December 2013