Every Song Reminds Me Of You

"......ewwww,  baby baby...

             is it true, baby baby

       want to be with you,  baby baby...

                do you love me too, baby baby...."

imagine your kiss, so

gentle on my lips

kissing me down my neck

and  then back up

Imagine you and I

alone tonight

that would this love

bring to us on a

dark rainy night



it's only love that

makes me feel this way

and tears my heart away

makes me dream about you

and want you more and

more and more and more...



the fate that brought me here

makes me want you next

to me...in all the times

and every day

only, secretly meeting you

'round  the corner

or in some lonely

dark alley

lips touching, love

crushing



And the song in my heart,

makes me think nothing

but,  about you

 all the time and in between times too

daydreaming just you and I

wanting so much more...


but now, you're going to miss me

on those nights when

you'll be thinking how I

loved you and held you

and missed you and wanted

you and would have died

for you

and cried for you

and lied for you

how i gave you everything

and how i never

wanted to part

and those songs keep playing

in my head....."oooohhh, baby baby..."

oh, you're going to miss me

not like before

this time, you'll miss me

more until you cry

until you die

until you break down and

realize

and then...........

the songs keep tearing me apart...

"love me love me, you're gonna' miss me...."

And then you'll know

real love and

you'll

want

me

once

more......

" doo wap, baby, love you soooooo"  






June 7th, 2013

Trouble

we're in a hell of a lot of trouble

Not THAT kind of trouble

but a trouble where you've lost control

and one that goes deep inside your soul


You see, there's a thing

I can't put my finger on it yet

But I know it's happening

it's pulling at my heart strings...

but I don't want to stop it....at all

I want it to go on like this forever

and ever

this thing called trouble


see eventually

it's going to envelop me/him/us

until we're sucked into it

further and further

and then, we'll be in the middle of it

we won't wonder why or how

we got there because by then

we won't give a damn

But on our way

oh, there's going to be

lots and lots of trouble

consuming me

tearing me apart

making me want him more and more

coming every day

relentlessly


Tomorrow

we'll do it again

he'll call my name and

he'll smile and tease me

make me want him

he'll ask me to call him

or he'll ask me stay with him

and I won't be able to resist

but I'll fight it and pretend I

never heard and he'll have to

repeat it two maybe three times

and then before I know it

he with his magic wand

magic fairy dust

sprinkling trouble all over me

and me just wanting and

waiting for it,

nothing but trouble....









June 4, 2013

a song in my heart...

She's going to stop thinking pretty soon and just go with it

It must be pretty clear by now

Everyone else sees it, does that mean that they see it too

He calls her name....

                " Sara, your the poet in my heart..."


And she asks herself;  how do you know..

I  mean really "know"

She's trying not to over-think things...

    he hugged me  -  he wants me...

    he flirts with me -  he loves me

    he makes me laugh  -  he wants to marry me

huh? what?

and on and on and on and on and on


               "wait a minute baby.....stay with me awhile..."


He said he misses her, come see me, he says.

she says, I'm coming......

when they meet, will it be the way she wants, the way he wants...

does he mean I miss you miss you

Or is it, I miss you miss you

Trying not to read into or out of  things...

We got this thing...This thing called.....

It's just that we can't

put our fingers on this thing...

can't describe it, just know

we got this thing...


               "drowning in the sea of love, where everyone drowns..."


Right not, right right now, right now

is he thinking of her...

the way that she's thinking of him....

She's reaching for him, wants him, needs him...

and the song goes on...


               "in the sea of love, where everyone drowns, then call me

                                                                                               call me home.."  


June, 2013

Song by Fleetwood Mac "Sara"

Untitled

He put the surfboard in the back of his truck and took off.

He was stoked because he heard that there would be off-shore winds and about six to eight foot waves.

That would be just about perfect in his mind.

It was 4:30 a.m, and still dark.

When he got there, the ocean was like glass, he was a little disappointed. Sun was just peaking over the horizon. He watched and waited for the next set.

There it was... the beauty of the ocean, kicking in some off-shore winds, slight spray at the top of the wave, causing it to break just right.....

It was like looking at Rincon.

He watched a few more sets and then, he paddled out. No wet suit needed today. It was a warm 65.

Out there, on the crust, waiting on the back of his board, he closed his eyes...

Not a single soul was there.... yet.

And it was so quiet he could hear the waves building behind him. It was awesome.

He opened his eyes just in time to see the swell, it was bigger then he thought, rushing up behind him.

All he wanted to do was try to catch a little shoulder....

As he did, he dropped in and took off. He turned and got inside a little...awesome ride

As he came out, the waved bottomed so he baled ...

Good ride, he thought as he paddled back out.  Need about 25 more like this today before I even think about leaving.......


This was the only time he could clear his head, being one with the ocean was something explainable.

It would be about noon before he was done. He threw his board in the back of his truck and drove home.

There wouldn't be much to say when he got home. He was spent and he was in the zone.

He had left his cell phone on the kitchen counter, and it was blowing up.

"No," he said out loud. "You're not ruining my day today!"

He picked up the cell phone and dialed a number.

Hi

Hi, whatcha' doing?

Waiting for you. You need to come over here, right now....

Then, he turned his cell phone off. He went to take a shower and before he was done she was climbing in the shower with him.

Where's Sara? she asked him as she climbed in.

Sara? Sara who?  I don't care about her. Don't want to hear her name, not again. Don't bring her up and spoil this...

Sorry, she said. When they were done, he decided to tell her what happened. Sara had cheated on him. There would be no more Sara. She had been calling him non-stop since his best friend told him.

Besides, why would you care if I was still with Sara, don't you want me for yourself??

Of course, she said, embarrassed. She wanted him more then anything. But not like this. Not on the rebound.

Look, you're awesome and I really like you...

Oh yeah, he laughed and put his hand on her neck.

Yes, she laughed...but I don't want you like this...

Why? Don't you think I care about you?

No, I know you do. I just think there should be some time between Sara and I....

Seriously?

yes

Then do what you gotta do...

She got up and looked at him. You know, I'll be back.

Whatever you say...

she waved at him as she turned to go out the door.

he looked troubled

He went back to his cell phone and turned it on. There she was calling him again.

"Sara, stop calling me. It's not going to do you any good." And he hung up.




May 24, 2013.

The Love Trap

I'm in a love trap....

Anyone know what that is? It's like being half way

between here __________  and _________________ there,  ya' get me?

I'm mean, I'm not here anymore and that's a really good thing

But I'm not quite there yet, ya' know what I mean?

It's like having the chocolate shake with the whip cream and cherry

And you slurp up the chocolate, hmmm and it's good, no, it's really good, don't get me wrong, but you find

that  you haven't nor will

you now or until you reach there, will you get to touch or better yet, get to taste 

that whip cream and cherry.... damn...sort of a let down; BUT NOT REALLY! You had the chocolate

shake, FREAK!

It's like being between "okay" and "really good" to being "soooooo good" to

being, "ahhhh, sooo sooo sooo sooo good" , pardon me while I breath....(clearing throat)

That's a love trap. 

There's this beginning where ummm, things are kind of up in the air,

yeah, you see, it's the here or the beginning

Then there's the half way mark, well, half way or so,

and things are really good!  I really like being in the love trap! I like being here, half way.  I haven't had

better days EVER! I can honestly say that.

I'm soooooo excited to see what comes my way...

I mean, love is awesome and powerful and makes you do great things,

but it could also make you do stupid things...but we won't go into that.

Today, we are in the zone.... the love trap zone....

Nothing can go wrong, right? Right?

I get that you're not as excited as I am...well, you gotta be there to be excited...

I mean, things can goooo wrong. I mean, something could happen; change of heart, change of mind, change

of something.....NAW, but not likely!!  Not now, not when we're like

 not here ________________but here, love trapped!

When you're in this love trap, you've been there awhile, and at this point, you're kinda' trapped there.

I mean, they got you. They got your mind. They got your spirit. They got your soul. Pretty much,

they got your body. What's left?

I'm not complaining. Far be it for me to complain, when I got mine, got him, got somethin'.....

What else is there?

But I do want to get there. Just not sure how long it takes to get there. But, kind of like being here.

I'm always motivated. I've always got the love-bug biting me... oh that's something else entirely....

So, I think I'm really okay. In fact, I'm not just okay I'm loving every single second that I am in

this love trap. Really!!!!

Ya' get me?



May 23, 2013

Love Music

He was going to miss her, even if he didn't want to

he tried not to think of her but she kept popping into his head

Was it her smile, her crazy mischievous smile that seemed to just grab at his soul

Was it the twinkle in her eyes, that danced all over his face

Damn, Stop!

he was driving home.  Didn't need this distraction.  Music playing on the radio...

The "love music" she called it

He chuckled.

Love....... something he hadn't had in a long time.

Real, real love. It was a scarce commodity.

Meeting someone that you were attracted to was easy

but staying in that cool, romantic, loving place was hard

But her, she seemed to find that place in his mind...

The love music drifting along the air....


"God bless you
You made me feel brand new
For God bless me with you
You made me feel brand new
I sing this song for you"

So that's what it  had come to...

he pulled into the driveway..

He would have to call her, tell her something, anything.

maybe this time he would confess

maybe this time he would ask her to coffee or to dinner

where he could just stare at her as she made him feel , really feel...

He walked into the house. All was quiet. He looked at his phone, 

put it down and sat on the couch, 

laying his head back he closed his eyes...

she would be there, still waiting...

he had no doubts about the way he felt

or about the way she felt

it was all worth waiting for....

and somewhere he could hear the "love music" playing....

and that's what it had come to....




May 22, 2013