ramblings and meaningless words: V DAY

ramblings and meaningless words: V DAY: Valentine's Day What a lot of crock. Anything to swindle us consumers out of our hard earned... and here we are, falling for it lik...

V DAY

Valentine's Day

What a lot of crock. Anything to swindle us consumers out of our hard earned... and here we are, falling for it like it's real and all that. We deserve to be swindled. It's supposed to be a day of love, sweet sweet love. 

 Show your loved one what they mean to you on this one day.

THIS above all other days in the whole year, this day to show them your undying love in a 

box of chocolates or a handful of balloons...all wrapped up forever and ever 

until next year, when it will be time to do it all over again. UGH.

Millions of cash spent on this ONE DAY!

Suck it up people,  we do it every year!

As a kid, I was smart enough not to buy into the BS. But, it didn't stop me from getting emotional

about it. V Day. My friends, acquaintances, all getting flowers, cards and balloons, except

me. I got nothing. Nada. Zilch. Not even a card on my porch from a lowly 
stranger who felt the same way about it as I?
 V Day sucked. 

I attributed this dry period to not really having a boyfriend directly at the time V Day was. I vowed one day

to cause my friends to go into a Dry V Day, wherein I received all the accolades of undying

love, hoisted upon me tenfold. Therefore leaving them with the emptiness I 

felt all those years. Pay back's a bitch. 

Then, of course, in reality I get married and for years and years, Valentines galore. Flowers, cards, chocolate, 

sexy nighties, dinners, porn...

yep, it was all there on Valentines. 

Great, good. I'm so happy.

But then, I always said, "it's not about the day...it's about the thought..every day should be

Valentine's Day!!!"

yeah. 

Fast forward to now. Once again, I am reminded of the teen years when I felt so left out. 

I approached today with trepidation. I did not plan and did not expect. 

I told my co-workers my real feelings... every day should be about 

loving and caring for one another. And my final word was,

 " all I ever wanted for

V day was someone saying to me, here, I am yours for V day and 

everyday for the rest of your life..". 

The best Valentine ever!!

Right!

Right?

Happy V Day everybody.

Hoping for something more meaningful next year... fat chance.

The One

When I saw you at the

drugstore

and you looked

at me twice

I knew we'd be

together and

I knew you'd

be nice

You tried not to

fall and I

tried not to catch

you but you

fell anyway

and I knew

she would let

you

So I tried to stay

cool and not

give it away that

I wanted you 

more
each and
every day

But I know

now it was

wrong and we

held on too long

me wanting more

and you only
wanting to end
the war

And in spite of the

fighting, in spite

of the truth, we held on
together and
we held on
for us and
I wished for a song
something to
believe in and
something to be strong

But she couldn't let go

and neither could I

I guess in the long

run

it was her or I

So, I gave up my heart

and I gave up

my dream

of you and I together

it was not what it seemed

and I remembered

when I met you

that day in

the drugstore,

I knew

I would love you

I knew I 

couldn't let go.....

Too Good To Be True

Too good to be true

is the way I felt

about you

everyday a

dream come true

somehow

you were enchanting

and romantic and

it was

all new

I could not

resist

you

And, it was the

best I ever had

your kisses so

sweet, so soft 

made me

so glad

your arms

that loved me

protecting us from

the storm, holding on

while the world

fell around us

we were

re-born

Too good to be true

and everyday

that I loved you

I knew it

was just a 

dream come true

and tried not to

think of 

the ending it

would come to

And then I saw

you

struggling with 

what you heard and

what you knew

and then just as 

sure as we were 

our love was true

it was over 

for me and you

too good to be true

is the way 

I felt about you

but I didn't stop

loving you

no

I never stopped

loving you

Third Time Charmer

Something about the first time

and being it was

mind blowing and

crushing me

as my heart sank 

well I never

saw the 

second time

coming

it was then,

after the first time, that I

decided not

to play that

game

while I was trying

not to cry

as each day

dragged slowly by

so dumb I was 

thinking you were

coming back 

and when you

did, I tried

I tried to

get out of

my head

But when the second time

came rolling through

your heart

being so untrue

and me 

falling down

once again

not knowing if

I would ever get up

again

I cried until

my tears were

dry 

then you showed

up, the second time

 at my door

that was when

And now, I carry

my heart

as it is so

heavy because they

say

the third time

is a charm

now, after

you said goodbye

what am I

what am I

what am I

I'm the

third time

charmer

broken down

and feelin'

like I could

die....

Breakin' Me Down

Breakin' me down each day

makin' me not want to play

this game

Don't want to see your eyes

just want you to realize

could be misconstrued

might mistake

wanting me

then you would

be the fool

Now - here we are

once again

and I see you telling me

something I already 

knew then

there is no place 

I'd rather be

breakin' me down each day

makin' it hard

makin' it hard

just to be

me...

January 2013

Unfair

he stood there 

as if to say,

I'm in no way 

into you

I tried to ignore it

wondering what I 

ever saw in him

but knew that

was wrong

as I approached 

I grabbed his hand

he pulled away and

jerked around

"Hey", he said

as if he never wanted

me to touch him again

"Don't" he said

and I walked past him

pretending not to care

and then I felt him

from behind as he

grabbed me

His arms circled my waist

as I tried to resist

"you," he said as if

I were someone else

and then he kissed me

like he had before

so many times

and it was just as 

it had been always

his mouth on mine

he whispered

"I love you"

I knew then as I know now

pretending that you don't

care, was protecting our

souls from a love

that was so unfair

it was our secret

it would always be our secret

January 2014