Unfair

he stood there 

as if to say,

I'm in no way 

into you

I tried to ignore it

wondering what I 

ever saw in him

but knew that

was wrong

as I approached 

I grabbed his hand

he pulled away and

jerked around

"Hey", he said

as if he never wanted

me to touch him again

"Don't" he said

and I walked past him

pretending not to care

and then I felt him

from behind as he

grabbed me

His arms circled my waist

as I tried to resist

"you," he said as if

I were someone else

and then he kissed me

like he had before

so many times

and it was just as 

it had been always

his mouth on mine

he whispered

"I love you"

I knew then as I know now

pretending that you don't

care, was protecting our

souls from a love

that was so unfair

it was our secret

it would always be our secret

January 2014