The In Betweens

it wasn't where that they needed to be
was not there and didn't have to
it was somewhere and that's where everything
happened somewhere in between

she remembered how it was almost dawn
light peering through the door
not that she saw it only that she did
recall and it was only fleeting that she
thought how it was about to turn daylight

he ran his hand down her back
she inched her arms around his neck
as he pulled her close and held her
tight as if there would be nothing
left but air to grasp and then soon nothing
left to breathe....

she kissed his cheek, ever so close to his lips
his mouth groping for hers
tender, sweet, passionate, loving kisses
his each and everyone one better then
before making her want more and more
and the darkness filled their
in betweens

he grabbed her hair and gently pulled
her head back as he kissed her neck
from her lips all the way down
to her breasts and then
back up again to her mouth.. she
wrapped her hands around his
face and kissed him again
and again love and lust
intermingled in their arms

he pulled her blouse she modestly
tried to turn away, but he reached behind
her and unclasp her bra... he could not
stop himself and she did not want to stop
him now..

he grabbed her and lifted her
she mostly a willing participant, wrapped her
legs around him as he held her so close to him.
he sat her on the table and they made love
they made love like neither had before.

but now it was time to go, to leave
and what was to be done, there was
no answer to their love...they had no
choice for it was already in the morning
light now each and every kiss somewhere
out there and what was done, was done
and never knowing
where they were or where they were
going or where they were to be
and the morning light filling the air

too late to turn back secrets
that would stay between them forever
he held her hand and kissed so gently
the tears she cried when he said,"
not again, not ever again." Her heartache
filling the in betweens....


October 2013

And It Was

we sat across from each other,
at the table.
you with yours and me with mine
I asked for the salt
and you were the only one who heard me
the conversation was solemn each
remembering the agenda we had in mind
we talked about the weather
we talked about politics
we talked about animals
but we never talked about me & you
you asked a simple question
did anyone know what time it was
I looked into your face, the lovely story it told
I didn't want to move,
and then we were across the table, again

your water spilled and I reached to give
you napkins, everyone else oblivious
your hand touched mine, when
I looked up our eyes met, it was
only you and I, only you and I
trying to make sense of it
and then it was time to say goodbye
We all hugged, the obligatory hug,
I put my arms around you and feeling your arms
around me, while everyone else laughed
and made the small talk
I felt the way you feel.....
we said goodbye, fingers lingering
on your shoulders
loving from afar
as we sat across the table




October 2013

Fate

It's late. I have seen you many times before
Walking down a darkened path,
brushed against you through a door,
caught your eye across  the room
it's very very late

Not a day goes by
that you don't creep into my thoughts
like the clever magic man selling card
tricks on the corner
or the hat trick man who fools you
with his hat, every time
you creep into my thoughts when
I least expect, and I'm all alone

It's like a dream I had
many times before, each time wanting more
waking up to realize that it was
just another dream and each
time wondering what I dreamed it for

It's late. The sun has set beyond the horizon
and shadows skate across the hills
I am haunted by you, should we meet
on that darkened path that I should hold
you close and circumstance and all,
know you are the one

Fall is coming. I look outside, only to see
the leaves have dropped and covered the
ground with an orange and yellow carpet
And I see someone coming, can sense it too
I've been here before, at this door
but in all of history, never with you
in all of history, I see you
It's getting very very late
and somehow I wonder,
could it possibly at last
come true....






October 2013

If I Fell In Love With You....

"If I fell in love with you,
would you promise to be true
and help me, understand
cuz I've been in love before
and I found that love was more
then just holding hands....."

Beatles 1964


If I fall for you,
will you promise me that
you will always be there
and never leave me...
If I fall in love with you...

You see, I've been there before
you know, love and all and more
and each time that happened
it was more complicated then
just keeping up and keeping score
you see I've been there before.....

If I gave my heart to you
would you promise to be true..
see, I must know for sure,
right from the start that you
would never hurt me or
I could surely die if I found
our love a lie.....
If my heart I gave to you...

If I fell for you, can I
trust you to be faithful and true
will you promise to love me too
now and through the rest of time
forever and always you would be mine...
If I fell for you.....

If I loved you too, the way
that I think you may love me too
so, then, would you step on
my pride, make me feel bad inside ...

Well then,  I hope that you'll see
that I would love to fall for you
and that some may not see
it the same, and be hurt and
full of pain...

If we fell in love us two ...
If you fell for me, it's true ...

If I fell in love with you .....





September, 2013

Love

Wow. You're there. You started out as just
acquaintances... a hello there, a chance
meeting, a glance and then....
you became friends...

Friends. Not just acquaintances. Something
better, different even. Something more
intimate. Confidential. Trust. Something
you want to build on... maybe. But you
feel it. It feels okay. Friends.

Then life happens. Things change. Feelings
become more solid. A friend becomes
more then. He tells you things. You do
the same. He begins to rely on your
opinion and you trust in his. Each day
you find yourself wanting to spend
more time with him...he calling you at
1 am... you wanting him to come then...
and so it begins....

It didn't happen overnight. It took
time to see if you were meant to
be. And then,  suddenly
you're at the door...knocking on it
NO, pounding on that door
wanting to move in, to move
closer, to move together...to
learn how to love each other...
and it feels so right and so good....

But, love never prepared you for
the bad times, for the down times
for the sad things for the pain and
love never told you that one day
he would hurt you and you would
cry because you misunderstood or
he misunderstood..... And that
pain almost broke your heart and
little did he know, you wanted him
to just hold you until you stopped
crying... but of course, he never
knew... and he never held you....

But you kept trying because you knew
that what you felt was real and you
knew he felt it too... and you knew
that he wanted you more then
anything but just could not say it....
And isn't it funny how we just let
the most important things in our life
go when what we really want to do
is say what we feel and what we
want, yet we hide it all and in
the process we lose what we
had....

And so it is, the way love goes...
something that we never thought
about or planned... the ultimate of
what we want in life, that feeling
of wanting someone all the time and
getting butterflies every time you
see them...touching them and
just the feeling of closeness... the
one person in this whole wide
world that you and he want to be
with...each other.... and yet for
some reason, we forget what
or how it came to be...

Remembering love took so long
to get here....  and every part of
him is what you fell in love with..
not just his strong arms, but his
smile and his crooked feet and his
beautiful hands and the way he talks and
his swagger when he walks and especially
the way he looks at you and
says I love you with just his eyes....
all of that and yet.....

the tears have begun.... your love
is hard.... but you don't give up
because you know that in the end
he will be there for you and you for
him... You never asked for this, it
was given to you...a gift or a curse
... and now pain and heartache ... Now
the only thing you can count on is
him... he has brought you this and
you need to give it back...
So, you do, with all your heart....

he takes you in his arms and
nothing nothing in the world feels
like this. And when he looks at you
you never want him to let go....
and that's love...
always and forever
the look, the touch and
knowing he'll be there for you
always....
real true love





September 2013

Is It Choice or Fate?

I'm a romantic. Can't help it. I'm in love with the word LOVE
I could have been this way all my life, but I think not
It seems to be some sort of illness that has come upon me
the older I get. And this illness is unleashing a lot of holy hell
on me right about now.

So how did I get here?
That is the question that everyone is asking me
Well, everyone that wants to know has been
asking me and I do believe that love is not a
choice but just the way it's supposed to happen
in your life...

So in my infinite wisdom, I will explain;

In my opinion, love is not a choice..
meaning there is not a moment or a time
when you're with someone that you decide or say;
"I need to make a decision, right about now,
whether I'm going to fall in love with this
person or not! I mean, he's got no money, his job
sucks and he's married! What could be worse, right?
But there we are, falling in love with the guy
that has the least potential and the worse
history! Why would we do such a thing? Because
who we fall in love with, is not a choice.....

So what are some examples of falling in love...
you've been dating, or haven't been dating,
you see him across the room or you turn
and look at him and something twinges in
your heart or soul and suddenly you see
him all new or you see him in a different light
and you begin to feel all funny and giddy inside
and you're nervous around him and scared
and you can't stop thinking about him...ever! And
you feel sick sometimes when you think he
might fall out of love with you and all kinds of
neurotic kind of stuff that serves no purpose
other then making you more paranoid and
neurotic.
Now, THAT'S falling in love. And who decides
they want to experience that crap??

Could you foresee that happening, that you
would fall in love with that person?  Did you
know that at that moment in time, you would begin
to fall in love with him? I don't think so. Not a
foreshadowing ever in life could predict that
emotion coming... and I'll tell you why...

Because love creeps up on you...it's not
just smash in the face blam although, it can be,
But more than likely, starts out with a date, or
a fond hello..something that catches the eye
and makes us take notice of a certain someone.
At first, we're like, okay, I could go out
with this guy or I could have more conversations
with this guy but at no time did the word  "LOVE"
ever creep into our thoughts... or did it?

Then we begin the dating process however or
whatever you want to call it or how it begins is
all the same. You're interested, so you except
his invitation or you extend the invitation to him.
Somewhere along the way, feelings develop and you
don't have a choice as to which way this is going
to go...in the friend zone or the love zone.... And
whichever way it goes is just how it goes...you can't
make yourself love someone and you can't make
yourself fall out of love!

So, could we suffice it to say that maybe, just maybe
who you meet, is really fate and happens just the way
it's suppose to happen and you have little or no control
over this part of your life....

And that's what romance is and love and now I think
I've explained what it is....and to those out
there who think they can control their feelings, choose
who they love or if they're going to fall in love with
someone or not  .......
just try falling out of love, okay...... just try.....

from a Romantic at heart....


September 2013

Falling into Love

I dream that the ocean air is blowing ever so slightly

as we laze away our day on the veranda, feet 

hanging over the chaise, toes barely touching the water I open

my eyes as the sun peeks through the canape that

shades us...we are minutes from a beautiful sunset

 your hand reaches for mine....

You run your fingers along my arm, and I turn

towards you, as you lace your fingers around mine,

I feel your warmth and desire, as you

hold my hand ever so softly .....

You are my love, and in love I will stay with you

I want to hold you right now and never let you go

but the beautiful ocean calls to us, you pull on

 my hand and I open my eyes to see you

gazing into mine.....

Your soul is deep and old and I see the love you

have for me, it tugs at my heart so gently 

I tell you I love you with my eyes

You pull me closer to you and I feel your

gentle lips on mine...

You wrap your arm around my waist and

your passion fills me with so much love, 

I kiss you like I have never before.... the 

ocean laps at the edge of the dock,  as I feel your body
against mine...

You tell me you love me like the Gods 

love all of the earth and I run my hands

across your face and over your shoulders

 I feel that love from you......I know

that you love me now, I am so certain

of your love that I would bet all the money

in the world.... 

as the sun begins to set, I remind myself

what a beautiful man you are, eyes so bright, 

they let me know how you feel

skin so brown, lovely to be yours and lovely

to love... and I know that you feel the same

I stand up and grab you as I jump off

the dock; you follow and we splash into the

ocean... I wrap my arms around your neck as

we come together in the water and kiss....sun 

setting around us...

Right now, there is no greater love than ours...

We begin to realize this is not a dream

it is real and how we feel about one another

how much desire we have for each other

but we both know that this is not the

right time and we must wait.....

You kiss me with that kind of love

never wanting to let go....

I dream we are on the veranda and

we look at each other, and know.....

the salty damp air feels good on our

skin; the ocean calls to us... we grab

each other's hand and hold so tight

as we take that jump ... and we know.......