Love

Wow. You're there. You started out as just
acquaintances... a hello there, a chance
meeting, a glance and then....
you became friends...

Friends. Not just acquaintances. Something
better, different even. Something more
intimate. Confidential. Trust. Something
you want to build on... maybe. But you
feel it. It feels okay. Friends.

Then life happens. Things change. Feelings
become more solid. A friend becomes
more then. He tells you things. You do
the same. He begins to rely on your
opinion and you trust in his. Each day
you find yourself wanting to spend
more time with him...he calling you at
1 am... you wanting him to come then...
and so it begins....

It didn't happen overnight. It took
time to see if you were meant to
be. And then,  suddenly
you're at the door...knocking on it
NO, pounding on that door
wanting to move in, to move
closer, to move together...to
learn how to love each other...
and it feels so right and so good....

But, love never prepared you for
the bad times, for the down times
for the sad things for the pain and
love never told you that one day
he would hurt you and you would
cry because you misunderstood or
he misunderstood..... And that
pain almost broke your heart and
little did he know, you wanted him
to just hold you until you stopped
crying... but of course, he never
knew... and he never held you....

But you kept trying because you knew
that what you felt was real and you
knew he felt it too... and you knew
that he wanted you more then
anything but just could not say it....
And isn't it funny how we just let
the most important things in our life
go when what we really want to do
is say what we feel and what we
want, yet we hide it all and in
the process we lose what we
had....

And so it is, the way love goes...
something that we never thought
about or planned... the ultimate of
what we want in life, that feeling
of wanting someone all the time and
getting butterflies every time you
see them...touching them and
just the feeling of closeness... the
one person in this whole wide
world that you and he want to be
with...each other.... and yet for
some reason, we forget what
or how it came to be...

Remembering love took so long
to get here....  and every part of
him is what you fell in love with..
not just his strong arms, but his
smile and his crooked feet and his
beautiful hands and the way he talks and
his swagger when he walks and especially
the way he looks at you and
says I love you with just his eyes....
all of that and yet.....

the tears have begun.... your love
is hard.... but you don't give up
because you know that in the end
he will be there for you and you for
him... You never asked for this, it
was given to you...a gift or a curse
... and now pain and heartache ... Now
the only thing you can count on is
him... he has brought you this and
you need to give it back...
So, you do, with all your heart....

he takes you in his arms and
nothing nothing in the world feels
like this. And when he looks at you
you never want him to let go....
and that's love...
always and forever
the look, the touch and
knowing he'll be there for you
always....
real true love





September 2013