I'm Done

I'm done, seems like I've been here before

like two years ago, 

when my heart felt the blows

 I longed for you, but 

you said we were done

and I hung on 'til

I thought I had won

I'm really done, this time.

then I get sucked back in 

on just a whim of a word

crack of your smile

your laugh and I'm

there, sucked in

with a promise

to stay awhile

But then it never

comes to be

that time when we

were just we

when we were so close

came a promise and a joke

I'm not sure what it was

what ever the dream was

why I saw something

or thought it was something

when all it was

was free

a little bit of heaven

was what it was to be

I'm done. I've been here before

I've heard that knocking

on my door

but my heart doesn't want to go

holds me back, 

I don't know what for

Tears upon me, now

I'm done with this 

for real

pretend there never was

this deal, 

and heart can let me go

this hurt this love this man

surreal

for real... 

It's over. I'm done.

March  2016