day 1000

it's been three years
and everything was good,
so good. I never thought
we would come to this day
not the way I felt. I never felt
this way, no really.

day 1000 is the same as day
one. I remember that first kiss
and what you said and how I
felt and where it was and afterwards.
I remember thinking that something
really special was happening. monumental.

and it was. I imagine leaving in your car,
actually you driving me somewhere
because we never did that. I imagine
dinner out, together, eating somewhere
because that never happened. I imagine
an actual date, a dirty night out.
We dance. I imagine your pretty car
wrapped around me. I like the way it feels.
there's that smell of clean leather, because
you rub it down. there's the dark windows
and no one can see us stealing kisses. Because
that never happened.

But I did see you smile at me, so gorgeous. Your
smile lighting up my soul. your eyes
dancing around my face. your eyes telling
me you love me. I think, it was real. It felt
real.  Were you not all in?
Did you just pretend?

And all of the times, we would steal
moments, little bits of pleasure away
from everyone and just hold each other
 and think if only things would have or
could have been
different that maybe we had met
in some other place and time, then
maybe there could really be an us.

because how could you just throw
us away? after three years and now
now when I need you most... just
a hug made me feel better on most days.
if I feel this way, then what about you?
you must not have felt this way because
I don't know how you could have
just thrown us away.

it's been three years and I don't know
what's real or pretend anymore....  and the
thought of you just won't go away ...
Just 1000 days and it feels like yesterday...


march, 2017

And so it goes....

And so it goes....
the love you felt
the way it was
the simple things
that let you know
his love was strong
and so it goes

And there ain't nothin' babe
to make me stay away
my head hurts
from all the mess and fray
and how much is too much
because it's just not fair
how I gave you everything
and you gave me away

And so it goes
lover of my life
teller of my soul
letting it all go
throwing it away
expecting me to stay
trying so hard
to not let me know
he's just letting me go

ain't it sad, you never know
when love has gone
he just through it out the door


and so it goes...…


Revised  4/2019

bad kind of love

It's just like I said
how you treated me bad
made me love you,  it's sad
tearing me all the way down
to the dirt on the ground
saying all the same things
calling me all the bad names

Why oh why could you do
that to me
When you called me your girl
and said I was yours
then played with my heart strings
saying it's bad,
what our love brings

Now here I am
telling you, you can't do that to me
just love me, don't leave me
treat me like a god damn fool
Just love me
don't hate me
when you're thinkin' you're
so cool

it's just like I said
your treatin'  me bad
shaking me down to my knees
make me beg for you, please

must be a bad kind of love
and it's taking me down
taking away what we found
it's just like I said
must be a bad kind of love





January 2017

Life Sneaks Up On You

 I got some pictures on the wall
I got some stories I can tell
there are some numbers I can call
when I'm not feeling very well
but life sneaks up on you sometimes
sometimes its cold outside

do you remember when
we stayed up all night
when we thought we got it right
when we had that little fight
life sneaks up on you sometimes
sometimes its cold outside

Why do children have to die
why do friends go bye bye
sometimes I just don't understand
could you just hold my hand
life sneaks up on you sometimes
sometimes its cold outside

I think I'm going to cry now
thats just the way I feel
I keep going I don't know how
I'm like a cog stuck in a wheel
life sneaks up on you sometimes
sometimes its cold outside

We have to love every minute
We should love every minute
give it all we have and more
cause when it is all said and done
life sneaks up on you sometimes
sometimes its cold outside

I think I'm going to cry now
thats just the way I feel
life sneaks up on you sometimes




Melvin L Harris
1947-2016

Forever

I'm in love with you
there, I've said it, what
would you have me do?
you must not judge that
I have abandoned all that
I once knew, just to
be alone with you

Lips upon my neck and
down my back, hair that
falls across my face,
shirt unbuttoned falls to
the ground, hands grabbing
at my breasts and I am
not afraid of letting go
as I reach around some
forbidden place and you,
have given me more
than I could have
dreamed in this time
and space

 I'm in love with you
and so unafraid to speak
my mind nor do I care and
do not have anything
to gain by speaking up
and screaming from
my heart, it's the beginning
it's a beautiful start

Life is funny and romantic
and I have no idea what
I am saying anymore except
I love you more and more
and be there that small
chance that I may have
your love forever more,
then you must not ever
forget that I will always
be waiting just outside
your door.






July 2016

Love

              

  I wanted you forever

not just for one night....

June 2016

I Let Go

I've been accused
of a lot of things
even so far as
all the paranoia
that brings
but I've never been
accused of loving
too much
I never knew
there was such

Now you're telling me
that I was the one
that just didn't see
That it was never meant
to be
that I had misconstrued
something that was not
ever to come
something that was
always just a bit undone

But of all the times
we were together
I know what it feels like
to love somebody forever
And no matter what you said
or how much you want to hurt me
I know what we had
it wasn't all in my head

So I see now, what you wanted
from me
you can't even look at me
not even worth an apology
or can't even say my name
and if you stole my heart
I have no one else but me
to blame

If there ever was a time
when you wanted me so
I guess, from what you say
if it's true, we will never know
I gave you my heart
my body, my soul
But you break me down now
it's time
I need to let you go........






May     2016