Then I'll Know....

Not by what you say

if I thought that, for sure, I'd think 

I was the smelly fish water

your cat just had

Not by what you say

or I'd think you hate

me with the passion one

hates the guy who just

took the last 

cigarette

No, not that way at all

or I'd think I was the

dirty mat you wiped 

your muddy boots on 

after a rainstorm...

But by the way you look

at me, I see

the love in your eyes that

you have for me

no matter how hard you try

to hide it from me

And by the little things you do

like offering your meal to me

and helping me to make it

just right and

eating together like

the old married couple around

the corner

Then there are the times you let me know

when there is trouble ahead

when the road is gonna

be bumpy and 

and you try to protect me

In those ways, I know, 

and not long from here, in 

another time, you'll

decide that you 'd rather

be with me then 

without and 

you'll come back

you will

and just by the way you

kiss me

then I'll know..

When I Close My Eyes

When I close my eyes

I see us walking side by side

I see your eyes loving and looking at

every part of my face

my eyes, my lips,

as I am loving looking

back, at every part

of yours

When I close my eyes

I feel your heart beating

against mine

as you press up 

against me

beating with passion

I feel so loved

and wanted and loved

When I close my eyes

I see your skin, so brown

I see every hair

dancing across your face

your lips,

every line

every flaw

I see your eyes and they

are saying something beautiful

and sweet

When I close my eyes

June 2015

The Diary

He stood in front of me. All I wanted to do was look in his eyes and tell him, show him how much I cared. But instead I did nothing and did not even look at his handsome, beautiful face.

Instead, I walked outside and tried to get as far away as I could so I could cry forever. The worst pain I could think of was not having him in my life. Love undone is killing me.

When he looks at me, it's with disdain as if it were my fault that he fell in love with me and we, we could never be. Is it my fault that he'll love me until the bitter, last breath, dying end? Or that he'll live in this limbo with me unable to see where we're going nor him either as we tumble down the rabbit hole wondering if we'll ever find our sanity, if we'll ever touch the ground again.

I could sink into his beautiful eyes and stay there forever.

I've fallen somehow, can't find my feet, can't find the ground. Lost forever. I still think of him and wonder if it will ever end.. 

May 2015

The Summer House

It's the way we were

on that lovely day

that I was so inclined to think

there would never be another way

sun dancing 'cross the water

dipping in the sand

you and I together walking 

hand in hand

You were happy then

our dreams built on so much hope

go ahead and lie to me now

now that your gone and I've

nothing left to cope

I dream of those days

and wish somehow I could

bring them back again

but the good memories fade

and I am reminded

that was when

We lived there - 

on the most deserted beach

that summer house

and you and me ~

May 2015

Surprise

Your fingers running

through my hair

a kiss on my back

not quite so bare

who would have thought

you'd even dare

to realize the one

so fair

and then begin

a love affair

February  2015

A Passage of Time

It's December

I'm so drawn to you

even after

it's been six months

and then yesterday

did I dream

you wrapped your arms around me

held me so tight

I kissed your cheek

you tell me no

and

I let go

but you grab

me again

I can no longer

pretend

I tell you

it's not over

and you just

don't want to stop

it's been since when

you can't get away

I'll see it to

the end

It's December

January 2015

the prince and the princess

there was a time 

when the princess had no one

and no matter how much she wished or

dreamed for her handsome prince

she was still alone and

there was no one 

and it was a few years after

that she decided to forgo

all her wishing

and if he came along

then and only then

would she give of herself

all the love that

she had been saving for

because only then 

would she know

real true love

time passed slowly at first

and then began to speed up

until one day she met 

someone and as

the weeks moved along

he tried to get to know her

better and better and

they became good friends

and one day, he suggested

that they get 

together and share their

favorite hobby,

enjoying music... they

met at the concert

and laughed and he 

held her hand and she felt

the friendship grow

so the princess began to fall

in love with

 her prince, who seemed

honest and true and 

all he wanted to do

was be with you

but was he the prince she had

been looking for....

a kiss is but a kiss 

except if it's wrapped

in love and sweeter

then wine, and

if it feels real 

then you know

all that time you waited

was the way you

were meant to feel

the darkness upon me

wraps me in love

you held me so tight

oh please, never let me go

your lips on my lips

no one can know

breathless and weak

I give in and long

for you once more

you wait for your prince

 sometimes he comes in 

the darkness of night

it's not always

the way it's supposed to go

all sweetness and light

but you wait nonetheless
as your heart fills with hope

the prince and the 

princess

is just a dream upon a dream
and you learn to just cope

it's not always

the way it's supposed to go

and then was it really

the love you were looking for

but would you then give

him up, slowly letting go

or live with the love

that you finally know

the way the story goes....

but instead he steals your heart
and you learn that might be
all that you get
and it's not what you thought at all
and you're full of regrets

because that's the way
the story goes
the prince and the princess
story
is not always the way
it's supposed to go
and sometimes it's just
the way it's
supposed to go
a tale of true happiness
or a tale of woe
only the prince and the princess
know.

December  2014