Secrets

We had to hide

everything.. and no one could know

how we really felt or how we

really loved each other

the secrets we kept

were tearing us apart

When I saw your face that day

I knew something had

gone completely wrong

and then you told me and

oh, I felt so bad,

so bad for you

and just like that

our secret world started

to fall apart right before

us and like sand in our

hands, slipping away


how was I to know this

was the last time I would

see you, how was I

to know, this would

be the last time I would

be with you

we cried in each other's arms

as  you confessed the whole

thing to me, and

I tried not to believe it

I just couldn't even

imagine that my love

could be yanked from

me, in such a way


But, honey, so much

time has passed and I haven't

seen you in so long

and I haven't even

 spoken to you


And, my love, I just had to

say,   if you see this

or hear my voice or see me

on television or the radio,

please give

me another chance for

I have learned my lesson

and each and every day

I regret not telling you

my side of our secret

world but I've made

a better life for myself

I've got my shit together

and every day, I see you

every where I go and

I pretend you still hold me

and love me

and can't live without me

I want you more then

before and I know that

we can make this work

I've got it bad, baby

Just honey, please,

come back to me

come back to me


the secrets that we had

just makes us that much

stronger, makes me know

that what we had was real

our love was meant to last

longer


they say time heals but

I'm still waiting

waiting for you

secret

love

my secret

was you




June 16th, 2013.

A Simple Twist

you,

comin' on so strong

thought you had me

when you said you

were wrong

first saying one thing

then the other

trying to confuse me

oh boy, you ain't my lover



You,

comin' on like that

make me believe

it's not where your at

then side steppin' into

your acrobats

makin' me think you care

makin' me think you dare


See,

the thing is that you

underestimated me and what

I could do to you

so, you were deep

into what you wanted to

say and think,  how you

had to say it, how you

wanted to play it,  you

must have forgot about me



Trying so hard to make

me want you

didn't see me comin'

after you

And now, you don't know

what to do


Just close your eyes

and strap on your belt

it's my turn, baby

the games have just begun

you don't know when it's real

and how it felt


You,

comin' on so strong

and me

wanting you right

or wrong

got you right where

you belong....

and when I feel

you've paid your dues

then you might have me

or not, it's true


See, I'm not your muse

to be played with

and used

you, thinkin'

you had me

now, close your eyes, baby

it's too late and

you've been fooled

there ain't nothin' like

breakin' the golden rule......



Revised 5-28-20

I Was Just Thinkin' ....

I was thinkin' about you last night

not the way it is, but the way it

used to be

I remembered when I would

tell you how much I loved

you, and you hung on

every word

You would look at me with

those beautiful eyes and

without even saying anything

I would know you loved

me too

our love was so strong

I couldn't think of anything

else but you

But lately, we've been at each

other

And I sense something is

not quite right

Tell me that I'm wrong

that the feelings that

you  had, are still going

strong and tell me

that you love me, tell me so true

I'm not going to fight you

I never could

I just want to know, now

are we, have we, come undone

Give me a sign, I need you now

give me something that I can go by


I was thinking about you last night

the way it used to be,

because I still love you just the same

tell me, of all the possibilities

Summer breezes are calling me now

just tell me what I need to know

tell me that are love is still strong

tell me baby, before I go........



June 16, 2013

The End of My Rope

I knew it was time

I got to the end of that rope

and tried to pull myself up

but, I didn't have the strength

my arms were tired and I was weak

and all I kept thinking was," I can't leave you."


My dreams at night are filled with

all the images of you

smiling, laughing, joking, teasing

your voice haunting each dream

making me want you more then

the day before and the day before

that


I tried so hard to not feel this way

because what you don't know

is I cried all the way home

yesterday.

It's just that I'm obsessed now.

I can't forget a thing about you

and I can't do anything

anything about it and I can't

change a damn thing about

the way I feel


So, it's the end of my rope

you see and it's time for me

to take

a giant leap, a jump if you will

into your heart,

your  mind and your soul and Oh,

I won't be afraid because it was

so inevitable and somehow,

I know how you feel

You see, I see it in your eyes,

in everything you do, you just

don't know what to do and

I just didn't know it would happen

this way, with you, now


So, tomorrow when I see you

I may seem somewhat melancholy,

I may seem a little serious

I may stare into your eyes a little

longer then I usually do

or I may stare at your lips and

you may ask

me what is going on and

I might tell you that today,

yes, today, I've decide that I

love you and even though

it's something we can't do

anything about...I know that

you feel the same... you see,

it's been coming.. it's not what

I wanted...but it's what I got

And for now, if love is all I got,

then I think you ought to take it

It's not given lightly or carelessly

But it's with all my heart that

I give you all I got...and

in the end of this...when weeks and

months and maybe years have passed

you'll know that I was right to

tell you and most of all it was

was the best time ever, to

give up on that rope

We'll be okay,

we really will...

I love you







June 12, 2013

Every Song Reminds Me Of You

"......ewwww,  baby baby...

             is it true, baby baby

       want to be with you,  baby baby...

                do you love me too, baby baby...."

imagine your kiss, so

gentle on my lips

kissing me down my neck

and  then back up

Imagine you and I

alone tonight

that would this love

bring to us on a

dark rainy night



it's only love that

makes me feel this way

and tears my heart away

makes me dream about you

and want you more and

more and more and more...



the fate that brought me here

makes me want you next

to me...in all the times

and every day

only, secretly meeting you

'round  the corner

or in some lonely

dark alley

lips touching, love

crushing



And the song in my heart,

makes me think nothing

but,  about you

 all the time and in between times too

daydreaming just you and I

wanting so much more...


but now, you're going to miss me

on those nights when

you'll be thinking how I

loved you and held you

and missed you and wanted

you and would have died

for you

and cried for you

and lied for you

how i gave you everything

and how i never

wanted to part

and those songs keep playing

in my head....."oooohhh, baby baby..."

oh, you're going to miss me

not like before

this time, you'll miss me

more until you cry

until you die

until you break down and

realize

and then...........

the songs keep tearing me apart...

"love me love me, you're gonna' miss me...."

And then you'll know

real love and

you'll

want

me

once

more......

" doo wap, baby, love you soooooo"  






June 7th, 2013

Trouble

we're in a hell of a lot of trouble

Not THAT kind of trouble

but a trouble where you've lost control

and one that goes deep inside your soul


You see, there's a thing

I can't put my finger on it yet

But I know it's happening

it's pulling at my heart strings...

but I don't want to stop it....at all

I want it to go on like this forever

and ever

this thing called trouble


see eventually

it's going to envelop me/him/us

until we're sucked into it

further and further

and then, we'll be in the middle of it

we won't wonder why or how

we got there because by then

we won't give a damn

But on our way

oh, there's going to be

lots and lots of trouble

consuming me

tearing me apart

making me want him more and more

coming every day

relentlessly


Tomorrow

we'll do it again

he'll call my name and

he'll smile and tease me

make me want him

he'll ask me to call him

or he'll ask me stay with him

and I won't be able to resist

but I'll fight it and pretend I

never heard and he'll have to

repeat it two maybe three times

and then before I know it

he with his magic wand

magic fairy dust

sprinkling trouble all over me

and me just wanting and

waiting for it,

nothing but trouble....









June 4, 2013

a song in my heart...

She's going to stop thinking pretty soon and just go with it

It must be pretty clear by now

Everyone else sees it, does that mean that they see it too

He calls her name....

                " Sara, your the poet in my heart..."


And she asks herself;  how do you know..

I  mean really "know"

She's trying not to over-think things...

    he hugged me  -  he wants me...

    he flirts with me -  he loves me

    he makes me laugh  -  he wants to marry me

huh? what?

and on and on and on and on and on


               "wait a minute baby.....stay with me awhile..."


He said he misses her, come see me, he says.

she says, I'm coming......

when they meet, will it be the way she wants, the way he wants...

does he mean I miss you miss you

Or is it, I miss you miss you

Trying not to read into or out of  things...

We got this thing...This thing called.....

It's just that we can't

put our fingers on this thing...

can't describe it, just know

we got this thing...


               "drowning in the sea of love, where everyone drowns..."


Right not, right right now, right now

is he thinking of her...

the way that she's thinking of him....

She's reaching for him, wants him, needs him...

and the song goes on...


               "in the sea of love, where everyone drowns, then call me

                                                                                               call me home.."  


June, 2013

Song by Fleetwood Mac "Sara"