let go never

never in a million years would I have 

dreamed of loving you 

longing for that secret moment

that we would share in

the darkest part

of never and then wanting 

it  forever

 everything is gone and  

what part of me here is

for you will I 

never be the way

we could ever be when 

all is put upon the edge

small bits erode

of what is left

And yet, my heart cries out

for you and all your

alone with me with 

only me

I find you there somewhere

you cry about her

and hurt what's left

of us that we could be

not ever in the

midst of this

catastrophe

I touch your face 

your lips on mine

my hand in yours

but I can't cry

anymore for you

and we cannot be

this disaster in among

the rubble of 

broken souls and smashed hearts

I live for you

in my heart you

can't touch

Don't tell me you don't want me

or that you never cared

I saw you in the darkness

I saw you, my friend

 the least that you could do

admit that you
wanted me

then bid me adeus 

tell me that it's over 

tell me that it's over

and hold me 

until eternity sets upon

I buried my mind where

my love has gone

and you took it like

I meant nothing whilst

I hung on

like a sparrow in the wind

I finally let you go, my friend

and wouldn't you know
it was you who
wanted me more
then and
it was you who couldn't let go
in the end......

August 2014. one year

The Law of Love

He walks in that circle now
the one where he thinks he sees all
judging as he goes along, making
decisions, throwing out arbitrarily what
he doesn't want to know
making his new laws....

He can't talk to me now
never enough time or enough
wanting to, or desire and he doesn't
think he can even like me, never
again love me, as the business
of right & wrong
takes over

He glances back, being careful not to
let me see, checking where he's been and
not and wondering only what could be
and where we're not.

He walks in that circle now
the one where he thinks he sees all
but doesn't know the
difference between make-believe
and real, yet he runs
and doesn't fall, making new laws
but he really doesn't see
at all.

He glances back,
pretending he doesn't see
I catch him
he catches me...
but he doesn't see
he just doesn't see



August 2014