I thought when I moved back to Long Beach, it might be easier. Nope, it wasn't. I mean, if you count the first day, you'll know exactly what I mean. It's been 3 days now, and each day has been a triumph. First, you ask, why am I moving back? Does it really matter anymore. No it doesn't. So what if my car was towed the first day. I've not had a home in more than 6 months. When I found out about the apartment, I cried. And cried. Day 2.
ramblings and meaningless words
Sunday, May 7, 2023
Saturday, June 25, 2022
Yeah
yeah so like I said, it never seems to get better
I mean, maybe I just needed a vacation
there's no real answer here, no piffany,
it's out of control, always today
I can keep this up, or not
yeah so for the betterment of all
I keep pushing on, trying so hard.
I'm not done yet, as I look forward to
the answers will they come, maybe
one day .
out of control and no answers today
tomorrow or any other day. I want to scream.
yeah.
tomorrow and no answers today
Wednesday, February 17, 2021
Friday, October 23, 2020
AGAIN
I ducked behind the aisle; he didn't see me ... close call
couldn't believe I saw him, it'd been a little while
and then not at all
my heart beat so fast, I needed to run away
when I stepped up to the counter,
got my credit card to pay
and I picked up a magazine,
When I looked up to put it back on the shelf,
there he was, with a smile, made me think
of myself and
all the love that was lost and driven away
and all the times I came back, and
tried to stay, I
waved a little and made my way out of the store;
throwing the bags,
in the stupid car,
driving and home... I'm feeling so bad,
when tears of sorrow were all I once had,
and nothing, nothing was more
Weeks went by, when I'm at the cafe', having a cup of coffee and
working on a new story, enjoying my day, when
the
chair behind me moved, and I heard him say .."may I sit here," and I said, " I'd like you better if you promised not to stay"....
He looked almost the same, and... I brushed away my hair, thinking, why am I so nervous
with him sitting there. And
now, I'm watching him the way he tips his chin; laughed out loud, eyes sparkling
only makes me remember
all the beginnings and all the ends
Trying to look away, feelings creeping in but
trying only makes it worse
I'm beginning to forgive again, I
look around the cafe';
a small world to have profound things happen in...
I feel myself be drawn
as our conversation
dances in
and out of coffee cups and table tops and then
I know where I've gone and where I've been
and I know that it's happening
all over
again
2012
Friday, July 31, 2020
and then I was old
seems like it was so our time and
we were together, hand and hand
we held each other tight, made the cold nights
warm delight and the day night light and we
we were together, and it was our time
every song that you played, would ring in my head
and I would sing that tune hoping that it was
part of us, or at least part of us and you together
But, that's all I had to hang on to, and something made me hang on
to and something made me hang on to
so i waited for you my careless love, to catch up
just one more time to be together , your touch, your so near
you say, "i was special, dear " and when she walked up and you turned and
and then your hand slip from mine and then your hand slipped from mine
And every time I think of you, those many years ago, I think of your careless love
what you could have had, but how you let us go....
how you let us go
So seems like it was our time, and we were together, walking hand in hand
and held each other tight and the days turned into nights
and I waited for your love that was careless and cold and you left me
and let me go, like a flower you picked and then I got old
and then she got old....
we were together......
we were together
and then I was old...
7-31-20
Saturday, February 8, 2020
If
I wish I could write
one more day, one more hour,
one more minute, one more time
about you
you give me strength to be me
to see that I am who I see
you make me feel the reality
and that life is a duality.
If I had one more day, with you
your beautiful face,
your skin so perfect
I want to touch it
I want to scrunch it
I want to love it like
If I could sing that song of us
that comes along in a great surprise
and catches us off so off but not quite
I would then sing that song
to you
If I could write just one more second, one more
minute, one more day it would all be
about you......
February 2020
one more day, one more hour,
one more minute, one more time
about you
you give me strength to be me
to see that I am who I see
you make me feel the reality
and that life is a duality.
If I had one more day, with you
your beautiful face,
your skin so perfect
I want to touch it
I want to scrunch it
I want to love it like
If I could sing that song of us
that comes along in a great surprise
and catches us off so off but not quite
I would then sing that song
to you
If I could write just one more second, one more
minute, one more day it would all be
about you......
February 2020
Wednesday, August 28, 2019
Everything...
There was everything about you but
now you're gone. Every inch of you
that's in this song. Loving you was
always right
wanting you all day
and night
everything about you
now you're gone
There was not a thing that I was unsure of
not a day that I didn't want you more of
not a minute
how did we stray
not a night I , we didn't stay
together we became so very sure of
There was everything about you
that I wanted in this song
everyday loving you
made us so strong
and there was everything about you
that belonged
but everything about you that was wrong
But there was everything about you
every day without you
every day I longed for
couldn't live without you
every day I loved you
now you're gone...….
now you're gone. Every inch of you
that's in this song. Loving you was
always right
wanting you all day
and night
everything about you
now you're gone
There was not a thing that I was unsure of
not a day that I didn't want you more of
not a minute
how did we stray
not a night I , we didn't stay
together we became so very sure of
There was everything about you
that I wanted in this song
everyday loving you
made us so strong
and there was everything about you
that belonged
but everything about you that was wrong
August 26, 2019
But there was everything about you
every day without you
every day I longed for
couldn't live without you
every day I loved you
now you're gone...….
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